Organs

by Tom Milsom

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released November 18, 2013

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Track Name: Body
I don't want nobody
I don't need nobody now alone
Why would anybody
Ever need a body of their own
I don't want nobody
I don't need nobody
Now

My body fights it in my sleep
It doesn't seem to be the same as yours
Less desirable
Like a schoolboy's embarrassment
I open my eyes
And it's all still there

I want to fight it there and then
I want to put my feet back on the ground
But I never do
It's like a silent ritual
I sacrifice myself to me
I sacrifice you to me too

And i don't want nobody
I shouldn't have nobody
Now
Track Name: Alone
Back

When I thought I would die before this album dropped
I met a thin white-knuckled girl who looked like me
We both survived within our temporary lives
Clung to the planet just to keep from floating free

We wore an armour all our own
To keep us safe 'til we were fully grown

We were alone
We were alone
Isolated in my bedroom
Isolated in her home
We were alone
We were alone
Solitude had petrified its tone

And we were so alone apart and we were so alone together everywhere we went it seemed that we would be alone forever more

It's two years later now the album's nearly done
And i have left my sad cocoon behind somehow
And thinking back to all the times when I was wrong
It feels so nice to be so right about them now

There's something in my heart that's new
Watch as I slowly feed myself through it until the thing is true
Track Name: Take Me Out
There's some teenage smell to summer
Nothing I can do but feel it shine
Woke up with rocks inside my heart but
Breathing in the air here makes it fine

I've got that anxious little fever
But i've got a way to sweat the sadness out
Make shapes and take a little space to
Find a phrase appropriate to shout
So I guess you'd better take me out

There's some simplicity to sunshine
A cacophonous outpour of degrees
Shines upon its friends when we call to them
Soundless circular white suck up the seas

You've got it and I want it
This is what we can't be without
Dark scheming and light dreaming
This is what it is all about
So I guess you'd better take me out
Track Name: Cable Rat King
It's a mess but I've got integrity
Cable Rat King swallowed up my misery
I apologise for all the mess and I
Tell them I'm at work and they nod and comfort me

It's a mess but I've got integrity
Keep rewiring just to stay ahead of me
I apologise when I break down and pull out my hair
I'm just working in there
I apologise when I break down and pull out my hair
I'm just working in there

And I feel like the world instead of me
Ambient body and a soul that's never me
Cloudy re-imaginings of past engagements
Coalesced around a knot of light and strangeness
Tidying it up takes away integrity
Pulled apart the cable king
Nothing was inside of him

I apologise when I freak out and pull out my hair
But there's nothing in there
I apologise when I freak out and pull out my hair
But there's nothing in there
I apologise when I freak out
But there's nothing in there

It's a mess but I've got integrity
Cable Rat King couldn't help but better me
Little ones still form but it's ok
Given time they slip and dissipate

Work is slow but I close up finally
Finding new ways to define new parts of me
Cut across my forehead, tip me back and pull my hair
And see what's in there
Cut across my forehead, tip me back and pull my hair
And see what's in there
And see what's in there
Track Name: Having Fun
What to do, what to do, what to do
Trying hard to seem mysterious while wrestling with you for fun

Marry me, marry me, marry me
Close your eyes and bite your lip and in a second it'll be all done

I thought you thought that I was pretty but it turns out that you really took an interest in the things I had to say
So what
Happens now

You thought I thought you were an evening's entertainment nothing more but now we're pissed and trading secrets on the floor
So what
Happens now

I don't know what my name is but I can remember yours
Two vowels and two syllables and feminine but not one you hear very often these days
I don't know who your friends are but you seem to know all mine
Two of my best friends are laughing at your joke and one makes a face that I don't recognise

How's it going, what you doing, what's been happening since when we talked before
Oh, that's nice for you I'm sure that you're having fun and having such a lovely time

These nights are transient there's nothing in each episode that can't be washed away
By the onset of the day
But here you are still standing
Track Name: Better / Going Out Again
Better than it ever was
Better now than then

And I

Telling me that I need you
What an ugly thing to do
I'm going out again

Change my heart and break my mind
Crumple to the floor and cry
I'm going out again

And I think that I will be petulant about the time
And I feel well within rights to do so
And I feel like I can be cromulent some of the time
And I am feeling prouder and looser

I can sense it in my veins
I can hear it in my brain
I'm going down again

I don't want for there to be
This much volatility
I'm going out and I may never come in

And I feel solipsistic and afraid some of the time
And I feel effervescent and lonely
And I feel like an anxious anchor weight most of the time
And I feel powerless to control me

And I'm a paragon of honesty some of the time
And I can hard emote if it wills me
And I want to be everybody's friend all of the time
And I think that one day it will kill me

Better than it ever was
Better now than then
Better than it ever was
Better in the end
Track Name: Pipes
The world is strange, the world is strange
It's all a game, a shooting range
For apathy and empathy
Psychology and therapy
And even if I'm eloquent
This all defies my sentiment
The information's always there
It's in your food and tangled in your hair

And I see the exoskeleton
It's PVC or gelatin
Or wood or lead or anything
For water mud or medicine
So here's a song about everything

Let me cut it open and explore the information
In the pipes that make it mazes of logistical holisticism
Deep Thought is in everyone
And everyone's in deep thought all the time

Hovering intangibly is everything you mean to me
I'd open up your humming heart if only I knew where to start
These microscopes replace my eyes and everything it magnifies
Is something new but everywhere you cast a shadow on the atoms in the air
And I see the breath you're drawing in, you're like a moving mannequin
There shouldn't be a thing inside, but I could understand you if I tried
And let me tell you I've tried and tried so

Let me cut you open and explore the information
In the pipes that make you mazes of elusive existentialism
MULTIVAC is everyone and everyone's a circle in the ground

There's no emotion in my eyes
I'm just a robot in disguise
The passion when it came to me
Was more than sonic fallacy
And I can feel the torch down the back of my throat
Illuminating from behind the puny words that I wrote
Don't trust me any more, I just don't trust me any more

And I will cut me open and explore the information
In the pipes that make a maze out of my logical determinism
I am HAL and HAL is me and you are me and we are all together
I am HAL and HAL is me and you are me and we are all together
I am HAL and HAL is me and you are me and we are all
Track Name: Beautiful
Everything is so beautiful
Look at the roof it's oh so beautiful
When all the lights are flashing I close my eyes
And imagine smashing every bulb in the world
Every boy, every girl
Maybe then I'll feel like I deserve this
Crazy world that is so beautiful
Here in my fists that are just animals
One day I'll kill and my fur on the crime scene
Will be all they need to torment and chastise me
And they'll say my crime is that I'm not a primate
But I will drag my knuckles in defence until the day that I die

But your mind is so beautiful
Why do you act like you might use it all up
Even though you say it's magical
Everybody knows you don't think that at all

But your mind is so beautiful
Why do you act like you might use it all up
Every day is a liquid light that won't let anybody stay the same

(Learning how to think really means learning how to exercise some control over how and what you think. It means being conscious and aware enough to choose what you pay attention to, and choose how you construct meaning from experience)
Track Name: Dreams
Wet your dreams with logic
Stick them to your memories
Like celluloid streamers
Track Name: Chemical Reactions
Strange how life gets turned around
Gets turned completely upside down
Now I am here

I wish that I could be
Invisible at 90˚
And slide away

Your chemical reactions aren't the same as mine
We are allergic to each other and we can't remember why
Your chemical reactions aren't the same as mine
We are allergic to each other

Strange that though we're fully grown
If someone asked us we wouldn't know
Why we do this

I wish that I could be
On every screen on every TV
To tell you everything will be alright

Your chemical reactions aren't the same as mine
We are allergic to each other and we can't remember why
Your chemical reactions aren't the same as mine
We are allergic to each other

Strange that though this is the end
I want to be the only friend
That understands you

I wish that I could be invisible at every degree
To stay and watch you cry when I am gone

Your chemical reactions aren't the same as mine
We are allergic to each other and we can't remember why
Your chemical reactions aren't the same as mine
We are allergic to each other
Track Name: Weird Times
I
Said a silly thing
Went away
Turned
Truculent and taciturn
Muddled up the day

Cold
In the heat of it
Shivering
Gold
Light falls in the aftermath
Shadowy and thin

These weird times are haunting me
These weird times are haunting me

I wish I could hang up my persona and let it reset overnight
I guess sleep is the closest I've got
Must be why I do it a lot

Every day is a gentle parade and then small fundamentals you took to be fine fall apart
A stone out of place in my heart
Another black stone in my heart

I think I'll take a walk in the garden that's frozen in time every night
Silent crystals have sprouted and stopped
They once knew how to grow but forgot

Every day is so nearly the same and the strange subtle change should feel cool and okay but it's not
But it's not
Track Name: Holes
I hold your thumb
You pull away
It comes undone
And fades to grey as though it never came to harm
A petrified apostrophe upon my palm

Increasing ease
With which you cut
Complexities
Is terrifying in a mercenary way
Is terrifying in a mercenary way

You make these holes
Along your boundaries
Indulge your bones
Sacrifice yourself to god like it's worthwhile

I'm feeling bad
and wondering
If it's so bad
That everything inside will find its way outside
And everything outside will find its way inside

You make these holes
Along your boundaries
Indulge your bones
Sacrifice yourself to god like it's worthwhile
Sacrifice yourself to god to make him smile

Ten years from now
You're showering
And come somehow
Across the memories of when you were young again
The simple memories of when you were young
Track Name: Fine
Red and blue veins
Are the only ones you know
Don't be sad
Don't be sad
You fell on your face
And you don't know where to go
Don't be sad
Don't be sad

You're well on your way
To unlocking the infinite maze of the neurones inside
And you'll find
Yeah you'll find
You'll never be trained
To appreciate the endless repetition of your mind
Of your mind

You fell on your face
And you don't know where to go
You'll be fine
You'll be fine