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Organs

by Tom Milsom

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1.
Body 02:57
I don't want nobody I don't need nobody now alone Why would anybody Ever need a body of their own I don't want nobody I don't need nobody Now My body fights it in my sleep It doesn't seem to be the same as yours Less desirable Like a schoolboy's embarrassment I open my eyes And it's all still there I want to fight it there and then I want to put my feet back on the ground But I never do It's like a silent ritual I sacrifice myself to me I sacrifice you to me too And i don't want nobody I shouldn't have nobody Now
2.
Alone 02:34
Back When I thought I would die before this album dropped I met a thin white-knuckled girl who looked like me We both survived within our temporary lives Clung to the planet just to keep from floating free We wore an armour all our own To keep us safe 'til we were fully grown We were alone We were alone Isolated in my bedroom Isolated in her home We were alone We were alone Solitude had petrified its tone And we were so alone apart and we were so alone together everywhere we went it seemed that we would be alone forever more It's two years later now the album's nearly done And i have left my sad cocoon behind somehow And thinking back to all the times when I was wrong It feels so nice to be so right about them now There's something in my heart that's new Watch as I slowly feed my world through it until the thing is true
3.
Take Me Out 03:34
There's some teenage smell to summer Nothing I can do but feel it shine Woke up with rocks inside my heart but Breathing in the air here makes it fine I've got that anxious little fever But i've got a way to sweat the sadness out Make shapes and take a little space to Find a phrase appropriate to shout So I guess you'd better take me out There's some simplicity to sunshine A cacophonous outpour of degrees Shines upon its friends when we call to them Soundless circular white suck up the seas You've got it and I want it This is what we can't be without Dark scheming and light dreaming This is what it is all about So I guess you'd better take me out
4.
It's a mess but I've got integrity Cable Rat King swallowed up my misery I apologise for all the mess and I Tell them I'm at work and they nod and comfort me It's a mess but I've got integrity Keep rewiring just to stay ahead of me I apologise when I break down and pull out my hair I'm just working in there I apologise when I break down and pull out my hair I'm just working in there And I feel like the world instead of me Ambient body and a soul that's never me Cloudy re-imaginings of past engagements Coalesced around a knot of light and strangeness Tidying it up takes away integrity Pulled apart the cable king Nothing was inside of him I apologise when I freak out and pull out my hair But there's nothing in there I apologise when I freak out and pull out my hair But there's nothing in there I apologise when I freak out But there's nothing in there It's a mess but I've got integrity Cable Rat King couldn't help but better me Little ones still form but it's ok Given time they slip and dissipate Work is slow but I close up finally Finding new ways to define new parts of me Cut across my forehead, tip me back and pull my hair And see what's in there Cut across my forehead, tip me back and pull my hair And see what's in there And see what's in there
5.
Having Fun 04:31
What to do, what to do, what to do Trying hard to seem mysterious while wrestling with you for fun Marry me, marry me, marry me Close your eyes and bite your lip and in a second it'll be all done I thought you thought that I was pretty but it turns out that you really took an interest in the things I had to say So what Happens now You thought I thought you were an evening's entertainment nothing more but now we're pissed and trading secrets on the floor So what Happens now I don't know what my name is but I can remember yours Two vowels and two syllables and feminine but not one you hear very often these days I don't know who your friends are but you seem to know all mine Two of my best friends are laughing at your joke and one makes a face that I don't recognise How's it going, what you doing, what's been happening since when we talked before Oh, that's nice for you I'm sure that you're having fun and having such a lovely time These nights are transient there's nothing in each episode that can't be washed away By the onset of the day But here you are still standing
6.
Better than it ever was Better now than then And I Telling me that I need you What an ugly thing to do I'm going out again Change my heart and break my mind Crumple to the floor and cry I'm going out again And I think that I will be petulant about the time And I feel well within rights to do so And I feel like I can be cromulent some of the time And I am feeling prouder and looser I can sense it in my veins I can hear it in my brain I'm going down again I don't want for there to be This much volatility I'm going out and I may never come in And I feel solipsistic and afraid some of the time And I feel effervescent and lonely And I feel like an anxious anchor weight most of the time And I feel powerless to control me And I'm a paragon of honesty some of the time And I can hard emote if it wills me And I want to be everybody's friend all of the time And I think that one day it will kill me Better than it ever was Better now than then Better than it ever was Better in the end
7.
Pipes 03:26
The world is strange, the world is strange It's all a game, a shooting range For apathy and empathy Psychology and therapy And even if I'm eloquent This all defies my sentiment The information's always there It's in your food and tangled in your hair And I see the exoskeleton It's PVC or gelatin Or wood or lead or anything For water mud or medicine So here's a song about everything Let me cut it open and explore the information In the pipes that make it mazes of logistical holisticism Deep Thought is in everyone And everyone's in deep thought all the time Hovering intangibly is everything you mean to me I'd open up your humming heart if only I knew where to start These microscopes replace my eyes and everything it magnifies Is something new but everywhere you cast a shadow on the atoms in the air And I see the breath you're drawing in, you're like a moving mannequin There shouldn't be a thing inside, but I could understand you if I tried And let me tell you I've tried and tried so Let me cut you open and explore the information In the pipes that make you mazes of elusive existentialism MULTIVAC is everyone and everyone's a circle in the ground There's no emotion in my eyes I'm just a robot in disguise The passion when it came to me Was more than sonic fallacy And I can feel the torch down the back of my throat Illuminating from behind the puny words that I wrote Don't trust me any more, I just don't trust me any more And I will cut me open and explore the information In the pipes that make a maze out of my logical determinism I am HAL and HAL is me and you are me and we are all together I am HAL and HAL is me and you are me and we are all together I am HAL and HAL is me and you are me and we are all
8.
Beautiful 02:08
Everything is so beautiful Look at the roof it's oh so beautiful When all the lights are flashing I close my eyes And imagine smashing every bulb in the world Every boy, every girl Maybe then I'll feel like I deserve this Crazy world that is so beautiful Here in my fists that are just animals One day I'll kill and my fur on the crime scene Will be all they need to torment and chastise me And they'll say my crime is that I'm not a primate But I will drag my knuckles in defence until the day that I die But your mind is so beautiful Why do you act like you might use it all up Even though you say it's magical Everybody knows you don't think that at all But your mind is so beautiful Why do you act like you might use it all up Every day is a liquid light that won't let anybody stay the same (Learning how to think really means learning how to exercise some control over how and what you think. It means being conscious and aware enough to choose what you pay attention to, and choose how you construct meaning from experience)
9.
Dreams 02:10
Wet your dreams with logic Stick them to your memories Like celluloid streamers
10.
Strange how life gets turned around Gets turned completely upside down Now I am here I wish that I could be Invisible at 90˚ And slide away Your chemical reactions aren't the same as mine We are allergic to each other and we can't remember why Your chemical reactions aren't the same as mine We are allergic to each other Strange that though we're fully grown If someone asked us we wouldn't know Why we do this I wish that I could be On every screen on every TV To tell you everything will be alright Your chemical reactions aren't the same as mine We are allergic to each other and we can't remember why Your chemical reactions aren't the same as mine We are allergic to each other Strange that though this is the end I want to be the only friend That understands you I wish that I could be invisible at every degree To stay and watch you cry when I am gone Your chemical reactions aren't the same as mine We are allergic to each other and we can't remember why Your chemical reactions aren't the same as mine We are allergic to each other
11.
Weird Times 05:40
I Said a silly thing Went away Turned Truculent and taciturn Muddled up the day Cold In the heat of it Shivering Gold Light falls in the aftermath Shadowy and thin These weird times are haunting me These weird times are haunting me I wish I could hang up my persona and let it reset overnight I guess sleep is the closest I've got Must be why I do it a lot Every day is a gentle parade and then small fundamentals you took to be fine fall apart A stone out of place in my heart Another black stone in my heart I think I'll take a walk in the garden that's frozen in time every night Silent crystals have sprouted and stopped They once knew how to grow but forgot Every day is so nearly the same and the strange subtle change should feel cool and okay but it's not But it's not
12.
Holes 05:01
I hold your thumb You pull away It comes undone And fades to grey as though it never came to harm A petrified apostrophe upon my palm Increasing ease With which you cut Complexities Is terrifying in a mercenary way Is terrifying in a mercenary way You make these holes Along your boundaries Indulge your bones Sacrifice yourself to god like it's worthwhile I'm feeling bad and wondering If it's so bad That everything inside will find its way outside And everything outside will find its way inside You make these holes Along your boundaries Indulge your bones Sacrifice yourself to god like it's worthwhile Sacrifice yourself to god to make him smile Ten years from now You're showering And come somehow Across the memories of when you were young again The simple memories of when you were young
13.
Fine 06:05
Red and blue veins Are the only ones you know Don't be sad Don't be sad You fell on your face And you don't know where to go Don't be sad Don't be sad You're well on your way To unlocking the infinite maze of the neurones inside And you'll find Yeah you'll find You'll never be trained To appreciate the endless repetition of your mind Of your mind You fell on your face And you don't know where to go You'll be fine You'll be fine

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released November 18, 2013

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